Within the next several years, after I buy a female Real Doll, or other high-end female love doll, I'll more than likely be getting a male Real Doll, too...

It's really hard for me to admit this, because I'm so unused to this side of me. But, as I've been allowing myself to be who I am, as a transwoman and as a whole person, I've found that...yeah, I'm kind of attracted to guys, too. I'm far more attracted to women, but...I'm curious at least, about men and will allow myself to experiment if the right guy comes along.

So, I browsed the Real Doll website, went to their male doll page, and figured out how I'd make my ideal male doll. It was a very girly moment, I admit, and I'm blushing hard IRL by writing this here, because I know that even on this community, I'm a minority--a biological male that would invest another $6,000.00 on top of the same amount I'll already invest on a high-end female doll, for a male doll.

However, at the risk of ridicule, I just need to share this here. I guess I'm blossoming into as much of a woman as I can attain, and the attraction to men that was latant for so long is coming forth, though not in such a way that it eclipses my attraction to women. If I had to put a percentage on it, I'm probably 70% attracted to women and 30% attracted to men. Yet, when I think of a male Real Doll, as a doll lover and a bi-curious if not bisexual transwoman, my knees go a little weak and I get warm in a particularly sensitive region.

I'm such a girl...but, I guess that's okay, isn't it? That's just who I am.

Hi Megami,

No ridicule here. If someone is taking steps to find happiness and not hurting anyone, that's OK with me.
As far as getting a male doll to go with your female doll, remember the old gum commercial jingle 'Double your pleasure, double your fun!' Good luck with your doll choice.

Thanks, Kjenarch. It's nice to have encouragement!

This is all so new to me, that my head feels like it's spinning. It's probably a good thing that my window of time is so wide, as it will give me plenty of time to examine and experience this side of myself. I may end up with a guy and say, "you know what, this isn't for me" and end up buying two high-end female dolls instead. *Shrug* Either way, I'm sure I'll be happy--if for no other reason than because I'll be more true to myself.

Double the pleasure, indeed! It would be interesting seeing some male-on-female doll-on-doll action. Hmm...could make for interesting photo shoots! The Doll Harem better be ready for me! ^_______^

Why does this side of myself still absolutely scare the hell out of me...!? This just feels so , and yet right at the same time. Ah! *Is confus*

(My face when I realized I am more than likely bi-something: http://myfacewhen.com/i/453.jpg)

Enjoy yourself, and don't worry. I suppose you could spend 70% of your fun time with the lady RealDoll and 30% with the male. If you know what you like, you are 100% of the way there!

H.

That's one of the most difficult parts about being trans and deciding about how far you transition. What partner do you want, and what does that mean for what you could need best in between of your own legs... The first thing one can ever give as an advice here is to not plan with a partner that might come along or not, that cannot be planned and that might run away eventually. Be yourself and whatever you do, do it for yourself only. To make things more complicated, hormones seem to "turn" partner preference with quite a few girls, so if men are at least remotely attracted to you now already.... Or, if you wanted the female role in sex but no male partner as such, a shemale could be right in the end... I guess a doll could be a good try. However, if you want a female body for yourself, don't buy too many dolls, money is precious.


never ask others about this, your show


Eh... If anybody should ever ridicule or pester you on this website for being trans, tell me. We have at least one moderator being a trans girl, and this strange Vanessa admin girl is also a trans girl in the making and proudly so.

Well, why the frak not? Treat yourself to the best of both worlds, you earned it (what took you so long?)!

Hey TG Megami!!!

There's nothing wrong with being true to oneself. As long as you like who you are, and you're happy.

Just being the person you were meant to be is the best gift to yourself.

~Keegan

You could always get a "special" made.

I can't remember the name of a former (dormant) poster, but their doll was pretty unique and had me curiously aroused at the sight of 'her'.

Never be afraid to be in touch with your feminine side. I'm not - although it's only on an emotional/psychogeographical level for me.

IAC IMO You won't have any trouble openly discussing your mental floss on this site. It's probably part of the process for you, so it's all good.

Thanks, Humper! You're absolutely right. That sounds like a doable ratio (heh, 'doable', which is funny 'cause we're talking about sex dolls (as if I need to explain that to the class... )).

I still don't REALLY know if I will even like a sexual experience with a transwoman (male to female transgendered person, though I think I've said that already... (<__<) ) or a male; but, hey! I won't know until I try, right? If the opportunity comes along, it's safe, and I am comfortable with it, I'll definitely pursue it.

Thanks for your encouragement, Humper!



Yeah, and considering I don't know exactly what ratio I am attracted to women verses men, it's hard to say. Even if I was, say, 100% attracted to guys (I'm not, and that made me cringe a little. I can't imagine forsaking women...no offense to the other biological males out there... )

At this stage, I'm still thinking of holding onto my male genitalia simply because I like how they make me feel sexually. My penis is little more than a waste-disposal unit and portable sex toy to me, as opposed to something I associate with my gender or me as a person. It is a tool. Nothing more. Yet, it is a tool that makes me feel, really, really, really good, sexually speaking. Plus, if I end up with a biological woman and we decide that we want children, I'd like to go about that the natural way. However, that's not to say that I'm ruling out gender reassignment surgery completely. It's still an option, most certainly.



I wasn't actually meaning to ask anyone. It was a rhetorical question. But, thank you. I need to be reminded of that, especially since I've looked to others to tell me who I am for so long. Those days are over, though. I define my life.

So, let me rephrase my statement:
"I'm such a girl...and that's okay."

As they say on the interwebz, "fix'd".



*Hugs* Yay! Thank you so much, Vanessa! You are my heroine (and I'm not talking about the poorly named drug. ). If you need someone to back you up, I'll be there for you, too. Us t-girls need to stick together.



Thanks, Szalinski! I think I'll do that, that is, treat myself to the best of both worlds. Though unless or until I get published, a Real Doll of any sex is not in my immediate future. I am, however, planning on buying a cheap, inflatable, she-male (I know some transgendered people find that term offensive, so I'm sorry...) doll to play with in the meantime. :3

I guess I was just so scared of what people would think--even here. I mean, being bi-something...seems to be kinda frowned upon. Yet, well, I guess I can't help it if I'm attracted to other transwomen and to some few guys (and a male Real Doll *Purrs*).

Yeah...me = girl. God. Wow, this is still kinda bemusing to me... O__o What do?



Thank you, Keegan! Well, on most days I like myself, for the most part. I mean, my self-esteem is pretty abysmal, but I'm learning. And considering this part of me (the bi part) is so new and I haven't rejected it and forced it into the closet yet, I think I'm doing pretty well. So, yay!

Thank you so much for your kind words. It's easy to forget that being true to myself can be a gift, even if it's just a present for me. But, hey, I guess those are the most important types of gifts. Though, I still want to give of myself to others. Yet, to do that, I need to love who I am.





I've actually considered getting a she-male Real Doll. Yet, I kinda want a full-blown female and a full-blown male doll. But, if I were ever to become a bestseller or something ( ), I'd most certainly get a she-male Real Doll, too.

I've learned to embrace my feminine side, and as scary as it is, it feels good. It feels right. So...yay! It feels good to be able to be openly me. Now, if only I could go as Natasha to work.

It so totally is part of my process. I think best through writing, and having feedback from others via writing is equally beneficial for me.

Thanks again for your continued support, Cosy!

Uncomfortable topic is uncomfortable... Anyhow, I figure I may as well update this one, too.

My orientation seems to be a bit like a rubber band right now, it stretches to encompass just about everyone, male and female, and then snaps back to encompass only females.

That said, I don't know where it is lately. Just tonight I was admiring and kissing a naked Deseray, my Teddy Babe Deluxe Lisa, and all of a sudden really wished she had a penis I could handle. So...I don't know what the heck is going on.

If I get any doll with male genitals, it would only be way down the road, after I've gotten the other dolls I want. I guess I like the photo op options more than anything at this point, and then there is the whole broadening my horizons thing. *Shrug* For whatever reason, the idea of a male doll is kind of interesting to me. Dunno why.

I'm not really attracted to guys, but I love dolls, and a doll is a doll in the end, regardless of what organs they have. After my little episode with Deseray tonight, a shemale doll may be the most appealing. Or, I could just get my girls a strapon to share. Who knows what will happen.

Well, that's enough rambling in this uncomfortable subject. I'mma go now...

Thanks for sharing, Megami.

Human sexuality is so varied, and so fluid at times, that for us to pretend to fully understand it-- much less, to presume to tell ourselves and/or others that there are specific channels through which it must flow-- is ludicrous and IMO dangerously unhealthy. We all are who we are, and denying it to please others or to avoid unpleasantness will not make us happy.

If I could get a male TB I would, for me and my current dolls to play with together... and if I had a GF who wanted a male doll I would not only understand but encourage it. And if I wanted a male doll for myself and had the money for it, I'd order without hesitation.

Kudos for discovering what you want, and for being confident enough to tell your friends about it.

Megami. you know Patric of PIB makes a cock that can plug into a vagina to make your femaile dolls into trans.gender .
it is cheaper than buying a whole male for now.lol

BG

Trixie comes in the room....

Trips and Falls!!! (knocks a lamp off the table and it breaks)

CRASH!!


Oh dear,,,, I hope that wasn't Tiffany's lamp,,,,

I'm sorry... (get's up)

Ahem, Hi TG,

Now what was I going to say??

Let's see,, Hummmmmmm... Cookies? No that wasnt it... Moonpies? NO that wasnt it either... I wonder..

Oh yea,,

STRAP-ON'S (Jumps up and down clapping her hands)

I'm still waiting for Christine to buy me one,,,, I keep seeing her cute little tushie running around and just have to get me some of that sweet little ass....

I mean, How long does a doll have to wait till there owner get's them a nice Strap-on to play with them with?????

Jezzzzzzzzzzzz,,,,, TG,,,

You owners are soooooooooo silly sometimes....

Get Ran a nice juicy Strapon, Im sure she will share it with all your girls.. Ran is sweet that way, Oh and tell her I think it's 118 , she will know what it is that I'm errrrrrrrrr wait yea,,, anyway she will know K?





HEY DOES ANYONE WANT TO SPLIT A MOON-PIE PIZZA WITH ME???

Okay...it's time to catch up with replies to old topics! I really should be more on the ball with these things...



It's hard for me to accept my fluid sexuality, to be honest. I mean, for so long I lived under the impression (I'd even say 'delusion') that I was straight, when looking back, I was simply denying the fact that I'm attracted to at least some men on some level. I keep coming back to the idea of having a male doll and it honestly makes me get butterflies in my stomach. So, there has to be something there.

I would totally LOVE if Eighth Wonder made a male TB! They could call it a 'Teddy Boy' or a 'Teddy Dude' or something like that. I'd admittedly be curious to see what his plush genitalia would be like... (Why am I so open on here...? Ugh, it's embarrassing sometimes...). I too would like to see a male TB play with my girls. That would be awesome!

I hope that when/if I meet a woman (or man, I suppose, but I'm far, far more attracted to women than men) who I would have a relationship with that she'd not only be supportive of me as a doll owner, but would be a doll owner herself. So, a male TB would be a great idea!

Thanks for helping keep this an environment where I can feel comfortable to share these things without worrying about judgment or trolling. I have a much easier time talking about this on here than I do in person. I'm still not comfortable enough with my pseudo-bisexuality to say that I'm attracted to some men verbally.

Huh, I did not know that, Beardy. I'll have to check that out, for sure. I wonder if it would be compatible with my girls.

I really wish someone made a decent looking male inflatable. All the ones I've seen are pretty ugly, to be honest. I mean, I find cheaply made female inflatables freaking sexy, but cheaply made male inflatables just look...bad.



Eeep! Are you okay, Trixie? That looked like a heck of a fall.

Cookies and moonpies... I'm hungry now. *Stomach rumbles*

Where was I?

Oh, yeah, a response to your post! What, I've started it already?

Anyhow... STRAP-ONS!

(You're rubbing off on me, you know that, Trixie? )

Yeah, I've been meaning to get one for a while now. It's been several months since I first mentioned anal play in another topic, and I even had quite a bit of helpful feedback on the subject from some members here. It's sad that I haven't gotten one yet. My girls are dying to play with me, too, I think, so you're not alone there, Trixie.

We owners can be a silly lot, can't we? Me more so than many, I think. If I have enough money out of this check, I may have to finally pick up a strap-on for my girls to share. Ran has been asking for one for a while now, so this should make her happy.

Okay, it's hard for me to ask this question...but does anyone have any recommendations for a good strap-on?

Let's just pretend that it's not weird of me to ask this question to openly, 'kay?