"People who don't believe in evolution have obviously not taken a good and close look at what goes on in their own lives."
-Yours Truly
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Here is a tale of evolution and progress
Even though I grew up in a very sexually liberal household- my father actually didn't mind us kids watching porn, being the only totally blind member of the family, my exposure and understanding of anything sexual was, in many ways, stunted, skewed, and frankly, frustrating. To put it in context, one time a friend asked me, "What's the worst thing about being blind?" My answer was, "Please take a minute to consider how sad it is to go through your life hearing about porn and sexy photos and strippers, yet never see them with your own eyes."
To make up for that shortcoming, I read and listened to as many erotic materials I could get my teenage paws on- audio erotica, sounds of porno flicks, lectures on sex and relationship and how to please your partners...etc...etc. And while my virginity was gone at the relatively young age of 15, and even with a few sexual partners, what I was getting was no where as much as what teenagers in my own age were getting. I guess, as doll owners, most of us experienced how difficult it can be to try to get laid, or to find a good relationship. Now imagine how much harder it was for me as an awkward, blind teenager.
Finally when I was 17, I left my family and started living on my own. I got into college and found a night time gig, and my new life began as an independently living adult with responsibilities, and freedom. These responsibilities brought me confidence, and the freedom soon expanded to include my exploration of sexual happiness.
Aside from the one-night stands and party dates I started to experience, I began to really explore the world of sex toys and masturbators and dolls which was previously unthinkable for me when I still lived at home. It was like I found a new universe, a new world, and it was so vast that I had no idea where to start and what to aim for. Pretty soon, I found myself in a steddy relationship with a beautiful woman that ended up lasting for 18 years. I worked, studdied, and partied; life, was good.
Unfortunately, the relationship that locked me in one place for so long also turned out to be a largely sexless relationship, and soon I found myself starving for sex. To combat this flaw in my otherwise loving relationship, I went into sex toys big-time.
My first sex doll, back when I was like 18, was Topco's blow-up Cyberskin Stephanie Swift doll. After that was the Latex doll I can't remember the name of, Litha? Letha? whatever... Neither doll turned out to be that satisfying, the lack of tactile details on conventional blow-up dolls simply was not doing it for someone to whom the sensory of touch was the main arousal factor. For me it was like spending hundreds of $$$ to have sex with innertubes!
In the long years to come, I tried multiple toys from various companies. I tried Topco, Doc Johnson, and of course, Pipedream. Countless pocket masturbators, hip-mold masturbators, torso models and newer blow-up dolls came and went, only to leave me poorer and poorer and more dissatisfied.
"There has to be something better," was the constant thought, and indeed, there was, but the fabled silicone dolls were so far out of my financial capability as a struggling blind person paying off student lones that they weren't even worth considering as an option. When one's monthly saving is below $100, thinking about buying a $8000 realdoll was about as realistic as planning a trip to the moon. At the same time, my personal taste in female companions was undergoing a metamorphosis as well.
I guess I was like alot of people in that, when I first started being sexual, I was attracted to slender, super model type women with small waist, and big breasts. After finishing my degree, I became a part-time self defense/fitness trainer. Maybe it's because I was over-exposed to that type of women at work, maybe it was because I got locked into a long term, almost sexless relationship with a woman who looked just like that, or maybe because, of all the sexual encounters I had elsewhere, all the "good" ones were big women, but I started developing a fever for BBWs at around 2007. That lust for bigger, fuller women has only grown stronger as years went by, and this was a definite problem where sex toys were concerned.
I'm sure all the BBW lovers agree that, as far as that goes, it's a very much neglected corner of the sex toy industry. At the most, there was a couple of not very well designed BBW blow-up babes, a couple of BBW pussy molds from April Flores made by Topco, one BBW pocket pussy from Sexflesh, and maybe a couple ones that could only be bought from overpriced Japanese websites. Even in the solid sex doll world, true BBW dolls are far and few in between.
In 2016, I got my hands on my first "body and legs" style masturbator in the form of Pipedream's Fuck Me Silly III. That was as close as I had come to being satisfied with a toy since like...ever. It was a beautiful mold, big, generous hips and thick thighs. The one down side was that it was not fully 3D and was completely flat on the one side, but I thought, with what little money I could afford to spend, this was going to be as good as it was ever likely to get... I was wrong. Although the journey, the hunt, didn't end there as I thought it would, it was the Fuck Me Silly III that cemented Pipedream in my mind as the best sex toy maker out there.
In 2017, a pet project that I had been working on for the past 13 years suddenly came to an unexpected fruition and, long story short, I suddenly found myself with a few thousand bucks in my pocket. Did I invest them like any sensible person would do? Nope... Did I squirrel them away for that "rainy day?" Uh-uh... I told myself that this was probably the only frigging time for the rest of my life that I'd get a big lump of money all at once like this, so might as well go out on a limb and do something outside convention, do something for myself, something totally nuts...I was gonna buy a TPE sex doll, something that, till this point, I never dared to even dream of owning! For the rest of that particular tale, read the Riza diary in my signature.
