- KatsumiProfilePic.jpg (618.84 KiB) Viewed 2031 times
Entry 1: 2021 - May 30th
https://karma81.com/2021/05/30/how-i-meet-katsumi/
My girlfriend and I broke up a few months ago and the other day I took a short road trip to visit some friends. We were out talking over beer about this and that and how relationships have been. You know, the usual stuff in this situation.
There we were drinking, talking and just blowing off the stress. I don’t know how many beers I drank, nor the ABV involved, but I was on the tipsy side. Later that night after all was said that needed to be said I found a ride back with a girl that joined the conversation to the nearby hotel I was staying at.
I woke up the next morning in the hotel as I would expect. As I was looking for coffee and putting my headphones on to start the morning, I began to think about the previous night. It was filled with great thoughts and the conversation and I couldn’t help but notice I was feeling so relaxed. I focused on this naturally. My muscles were not tense, no signs of headache. I felt really good by all accounts, body and mind. I savored this for a moment.
When I switched back to the night before I recalled the conversation in the car back to my hotel. Just the feeling of it was comforting. Then I remembered who drove me. I started to feel a bit perplexed, but not confused. It was a kind of intrigue and curiosity that was building to a near excitement. I didn’t know her nor remember ever meeting her before. I tried to remember her name but I couldn’t quite get it formed in my mind.
I paused for a moment. In a kind of meditation that is engulfed in an enigma that mixed with anticipation and, hope.
I slowly turned around towards the bed in the room. I knew what I wanted to see and the though of disappointment loomed in the air. I have often hoped or wished and dreamed of so many simple things and I expected this to be unfulfilled as they always are. A breath with closed eyes to help me though what was sure to be my hopes crashing into pieces.
Another slow deep breath to help me open my eyes and there she was. Sleeping in the same clothes she was wearing the night before. Her hat was next to the bed with a pair of sunglasses. All that was peaking out of the covers that I could see was the back of her head.
I think I shook a bit as my eyes started to tear up. The feeling in my stomach was a shock of joy that resembled an emotional reaction of stage fright.
Her black hair with lavender running though it made me sure that she drove me here from where my friends and I were. I didn’t remember the conversation on the way back in words or topics, just the feeling of it. That feeling filled my being with an indescribable aura of peace, that’s the only word I know that comes close.
I had forgotten about the music in my ears as all sound had silenced for that moment as it jumped back in to my existence. The rush of Lift Me Up by Moby filled my ears.
I feel an overwhelming relief like a smoothness gently placed over me mixed lightly with questions that I didn’t want to ask for fear of the answer.
I settled in my music pushing out my headphones straight into my soul. I tried not to think too much as she slept. I moved the coffee maker to the room to the bathroom to keep it from waking her. I quietly was lost in thoughts swirling around in my mind eliciting a collage of emotion rather than any describable thoughts.
